Aunt Mary Does Not Like Ontological Distortion or Desecration :)

Please don't be afraid of the title, I was just trying to be funny (even while truthful)...
Philosophy 101: (Ontological: relating to the branch of metaphysics dealing with the nature of being. -A new word I have only become familiar with the last few months in prayer.)

I think it was in the Dialogs of Catherine of Siena that God said,  “Do you know, daughter, who you are, And who I am? If you know these two things, you will be blessed. You are she who is not; whereas I am He who is. Have this knowledge in you and the enemy will never deceive you…"

Basically, this means -God is in charge and we are not God.

This isn't just a religious idea (I found it all explained in Aquinas' Summa and maybe Erasmus explained this in His 'Freedom of the Will' as well) -I can't remember Erasmus exactly- but secular philosophy has also argued about what it means to be a human person. I forget my Notre Dame (and Mr. Haas for that matter) philosophy, but I think Plato, Socrates and maybe Origin talked about this. Check with truly smart people in Philosophy departments if you are interested. I only know generalities of philosophy. 

Personal Integrity and Authenticity Has Always Been Important to Me

Dear all,

I have had repeated identity theft, computer hacking, false emails/texts, etc. -this morning I watched again someone get into my account and change everything. It has happened with other computer accounts as well (job sites, banks, gofundme, etc.). Anyone who knows me well (read my blog -I have not  changed) knows that the style, font, organization, etc., that this person uses is nothing like how I think or write. It is so frustrating and against God's gift of interior freedom to have people desecrate a soul -writing, art, speech -one's entire personality -is a gift from God unique not to be tampered with by people without one's consent.  I simply don't want to be ontologically kidnapped from Jesus Christ -the Person (my Brother, Husband, Son, Friend) who formed me to think LIKE HIM for 40 years. We are the sum results of our life experiences never to be repeated. I can actually explain this theologically if you are interested, but this stuff is a crime as well. JPII's 'Person and Act', 'Theology of the Body' 'Memory and Identity' as well as Edith Stein's work on Hegel and phenomenology all explain this in a complicated way. We live it in a simple way. The fingerprints of God on each of our lives is unique like every snowflake, every flower petal, every DNA. You can't have authentic relationships (what it takes for authentic love on any level -friends, family, God) if it is falsified or controlled by another human being or on a computer. This is getting very frustrating... its perpetual stalking. Those I try to contact are cut and those who shouldn't have communication with me stalk. Silly how satan works. I remember years ago when false emails went out a priest contacting me saying that although they even used my 'fiat' it was very obvious the 'voice' wasn't mine. It is frustrating to have one's life controlled by someone trying to take God's place. Its like being a slave. We can change at times, but it is the sum of our actions woven together in a braid through our real life experiences. These things are written in our brains, in our hearts, in our beings. I cannot think of any other solution than to shut down all of my emails (I tried all three and switching my passcodes to foreign words in our alphabet but it still is hacked). I am really sad to do this since phone is not working well and I am basically cut from everyone until I get a job or new donors to be up and out again. Please know that even if false emails are sent out I am going to shut this down. I also have had mail stolen and the post office said someone cancelled my mailing address (you can try to send letters and I would be very happy to communicate with my people like before, but there is a chance someone who is not me has intercepted these.) Please be careful. I will continue to post on my blog which also is hacked but I am able to control somewhat yet. I am so sad to have this ruined... my old emails are gone. Please pray for a miracle. I am going to try a few more things (at times it seems like there are two accounts and my real one isn't hacked but is blocked from me). If I can't get this fixed, I'll have to start an entire new yahoo account again. I will try to fix this before I erase the account... Please pray that those who God desires to reach me are able to physically do so -meet me and sit down for a conversation. Arranging meetings is even difficult with hacked communication. The printers are broken but I think I have photocopies of original important emails. It is heartbreaking to have people who have no business in your life (breaching privacy) destroying your life. But Jesus promises daily to restore and fulfill His original plan. I really need miracles.

Jesus I trust in you.

Mary

Fiat. +

ps. After I posted this I got spiritually body-slammed... I pray we can all hold hands and encourage each other to be authentic in our unique lives.  I need a job that keeps me authentic to Jesus' interior relationship with me and call. I know there is still a place somewhere for Aunty Mary Fiat. + Jesus, I trust in You. +

Every turtle is different:

 So is every leaf:

 So is every nephew:

 So is every grain of sand (and every Johnny for that matter):

We are all called to be a different color, flower, musical note, language, sound, fingerprint in this world... how boring if we were all the same. Even the saints who were twin souls complimented each other through the Holy Spirit. I look at the twins (in our family) or elsewhere I have served -never have I mixed them up -their hearts look different to me. I noticed this with identical twin babies I babysat in 6th grade and I continue to marvel at the innuendos of God's various shades of love written on each human soul. Its these differences that make the beautiful tapestry of the human race and the Body of Christ. Unique persons united to the One God who then Himself unites us in and with and through His Spirit mysteriously.

Its like that little kids song, "If I were a butterfly, I'd thank you Lord for giving me wings.... etc., etc., 
For you gave me a heart and you gave me a smile, you gave me Jesus and you made me Your Child...
BUT I JUST THANK YOU GOD FOR MAKING ME ME... AHUH HUH...!"

Like one good priest always reminded me in the Confessional:
                           BE WHO YOU ARE!!!

Catherine of Sienna: "If we all were who God wanted us to be (not comparing or copying...) we would set the world on fire!"