Episode 1: The Heart of Fiat Crucified Love -What is the Heart, Fiat and Crucified Love

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The Heart of Fiat Crucified Love -Episode 1

New Radio Program

Hi Everybody!
I am super excited to tell you that yesterday on the Feast of St. Joseph my publisher for my books (the first of which will be available this summer) launched my new radio program. It will be centered on the interior life, personal holiness, all sorts of themes surrounding 'Fiat' and 'Crucified Love.' I am new to this radio world, and I ask for lots of prayers as I begin to 'walk on water' with Jesus.
Here is my webpage, as well as the first program which serves as an introduction. This first show explains 'What is the heart?', 'What is Fiat?' and 'What is Crucified Love?'
Please listen.
Please share.
Please let me know your feedback.
Jesus, we trust in You! +

https://wcatradio.com/heartoffiatcrucifiedlove/

Let us not forget Who it is that we receive in the Eucharist at Mass every week.
He is the Great Protector, the Divine Healer...
Who is All-Powerful, All-Loving, All-Generous...

I have worked for years with people who risked death in order to attend Mass.
These are the great saints of our times.
I hope that we would pray for the grace to imitate them.

I pray that in the following weeks, everyone grows in their understanding of Who Jesus is that we receive in the Eucharist and so that we love Him more than anything or anyone else in the world.

Matthew 10:37-39: “Whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me, and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; and whoever does not take up his cross and follow after me is not worthy of me.Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it."

In the concentration camps, people would refuse their small ration of food and endure hard labor and risk immediate death just to receive this Sweet Bread of Life.

In Russia they would meet in the cover of the night, hidden in homes, risking immediate arrest if one person was found out -just to receive this Sweet Bread of Life.

In China, they would walk for miles in the cold, in the dark, to secret Masses deep in the forest risking immediate arrest and most likely death just to receive this Sweet Bread of Life.

In Africa today people risk being slaughtered by enemies simply because they choose to go to Mass and receive this Sweet Bread of Life.

I hope and pray that people are using this opportunity of limited Masses to teach their children how much the Eucharist should truly mean to us.

Poland INCREASED the number of Masses offered to the faithful -and I am so, so grateful that my parish has done the same.

Radio Interviews on My Upcoming Books

Several people have asked me to post here the links to my radio shows about the three books of mine that will be published in the near future. So, here they are!! 

The first of my three books to be published is called ‘The Holiness of Womanhood.’

Mary Kloska's Interview about The Holiness of Womanhood

The second book I will be publishing has to do with my experiences as a missionary in Russia- both as a high schooler in Moscow, as well as the couple of years that I spent in Siberia after graduating from Notre Dame. While my book on womanhood is more of a retreat for women (although I have been told by men that it was interesting and helpful to them, too), this book about my missionary life would be interesting to all people, even older youth. I’m sure there are things about Aunt Mary that my nieces and nephews would never guess. This radio interview is a great ‘taste’ of what the book will be about. Please listen to it and pass it on to anyone who you think might be interested:

Mary Kloska about "A Heart Frozen in the Wilderness"

The third book that I will be publishing is called 'Out of the Darkness' and it has to do with the interior life of Jesus on the Cross. When we suffer the goal is to unite that suffering to Jesus and to suffer with Him. Suffering used as a prayer, offered up in love, with love, for love is more powerful than even the highest forms of prayer like ecstasy. St. Francis of Assisi once said that 'that greatest gift of the Holy Spirit is union with Jesus Crucified.' We all have suffering -how can we be like Christ and His Mother in it? I wrote this book during the three months I spent alone in a little city in Siberia. My apartment was the only place that the Eucharist was present for a stretch of 1000 km and Jesus profoundly touched my heart during this time.

Rhonda Chervin was the interviewer during these radio shows. She had been encouraging me for years to get my books published. I had met her during my time with SOLT before I went to Russia in 2001 and again I was able to live with her during one of my many 3-month stays as a hermit in Texas. After reading this book she said that it changed her life, and that wasn't easy to do to a 86-year-old! She said, 'I know you, but after reading this I want to jump into a plane and fly to Chicago to meet you again! I am carrying this book around with me to keep meditating on it!' This particular radio program can stand alone -it is mostly my reading excerpts from the book and Rhonda commenting on them. I hope and pray that you listen, enjoy and that the Holy Spirit is able to change you in one little, positive way through what I said and wrote.

Mary Kloska about "Out of the Darkness"

Having the Courage to be Crucified

Receiving the Courage to Go Forth by Catherine Doherty

To put things together and to make the connections is what we have to do today. You know, my friends, we are walking at times on the brink of what appears to be a disaster area. The whole earth is a disaster area. So many of us cry out in anxiety and agony because an awareness of something wrong is very deep in us. We try to remedy it, but we don’t want to go far enough. This is our tragedy—we don’t want to go far enough. You see, there is only one way to save the world, and that is to be crucified. There is one unifying entity in the world, and that is Love. Unless we can accept this, we just aren’t going to go very far. To possess peace you must be violent with yourself. You must take the pain, the sorrow, the tears, the joys of the world upon yourself. And in order to do that, you have to literally tear yourself apart, symbolically speaking; you have to open your heart and make room for all humanity. It is as if the Lord is saying, “You have to tear out of yourself all that isn’t of me, and let me fill you up.” Where else will I get the courage to be crucified? Or to be martyred by being ridiculed, put aside, pushed out, not listened to, but still continuing to do what I think I must? It takes guts. It takes courage. But guts and courage are nothing. They are not going to get us there, because what we have to face is beyond us. We have to have God, and we have to pray. On our own we cannot do it. Prayer and fasting and constant recourse to God, the Jesus prayer and so forth, are the only ways of really getting there. Life is definitely ascetic, a mortifying spiritual combat, but Eastern spirituality finds its ascetic endeavors just in living. It says, don’t look too much in books; don’t try too hard for ascetic efforts. Just remember: God works and you sweat—and then, keep on sweating! Don’t give up in the situation of the moment. This is the real penance. In order to answer all the questions we are eternally asking, let’s put our mind into our heart and meet God there. In that silence of the heart, between us and God, most of our questions will fall away like old rags. We must pray to encounter him who lives in our heart, for then we will become truly human. What is a human being? A human being is someone filled with God! Folding the wings of the intellect and allowing the Holy Spirit to take possession of a person is one of the hardest things for modern man to do. I can kneel, or else prostrate myself, Russian style; empty my mind of everything, “fold it” and lie still. Whether for an hour or two, or for fifteen minutes, it doesn’t make any difference. But a moment will come when it seems that my soul is awake. Do I think of the answer myself? Is the Holy Spirit inspiring me? I don’t know; but suddenly I get up and I have a solution. How does it come? No voice spoke to me, so I didn’t hear anything. No vision stood before me, so I didn’t see anything. I had nothing to touch with my two hands; and the wings of my intellect were folded. I didn’t think. I was just lying there, or sitting, or kneeling and the answer came. No two people function alike, because God deals with each one uniquely. However, you have spiritual fathers to lead you so that you can finally close the wings of your intellect and wait in patience and simplicity. “Lord speak, your servant is listening.” (1 Sam 3:10) You combine the insights given by the Gospel to the faith given to you in baptism, and then you incarnate the words through faith. You listen with your whole heart, your whole mind, your whole body. Then you arrive at a point where the wings of the intellect will be opened by the Holy Spirit, and the intellect illuminated by the Trinity will really be the listening ear of God. You might have to act against all natural reason and intelligence. You might have to take a plunge into an incredible darkness of faith. Day by day, you will fight with that, because our natural intelligence will say, “This is impossible.” It’s the eternal paradox of the Gospel and it just kills us! It really kills us, and perhaps we must be killed in order to resurrect. Each contact with God is bloody at first, and this is just what we are trying to escape. Here is Jesus Christ, and here I am in Jerusalem. There is a straight line between him and me. If I follow this straight line, I glimpse the meaning. If I go around a different way, I will never catch the meaning. But to catch the inner meaning, I have to go along that straight line without deviation. After this contact with God, after we really turn the cheek because we are in love with him, we suddenly experience such freedom that we are in some kind of paradise. There is peace, serenity, and joy in our souls. Tiredness disappears, and concern about ourself disappears; and there is not only freedom but also a tremendous song that wells up in our hearts and sings, notwithstanding pain, sorrow, depression, and what have you. Then you know that God is alive; and life has sense. Once life has sense and direction—well, that is freedom and that is happiness. How can you give this kind of peace to anyone? How can I possibly give it to you, or you to me? How can I go into the heart of another? You can only find those depths by love. It is entering into the very marrow of the other person. It is “knowing without knowing” what is to be done. It is as if you were dead to everything around you; you hear and you don’t hear; you see and you don’t see. Slowly, God takes you by the hand, until you reach the bottom. And then you can see into men’s hearts from the other side—from God’s side. Then he says, “Now you know. Act accordingly.” You have to love with a love that transcends all understanding to do that. Your love is incomprehensible, because you don’t love, he does. He was crucified in order to enable us to do this. Golgotha gives us freedom from that strange juridical hang-up that we have: “It’s unfair; they’ve cheated me,” and so forth. It may or may not be true, but that’s neither here nor there. He was lifted up to draw all things to his Father, ourselves included. To try to keep religion on a purely spiritual level is to escape the reality of everyday life, the nitty-gritty reality that the incarnated Christ met head-on. As I repeat endlessly, we must touch God and we must touch men, and that will make us cruciform; then we shall know both the pain and the joy. It is in that crucible of anxiety and anguish, of standing naked before the naked God, before the naked Christ on the Cross, that we will receive from him the courage to go forth.